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New account + updates
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hey everyone, just thought i'd give an update
i've gotten a lot better mentally, still have some way to go but im definitely feeling a crap ton better than before. during quarantine i've gotten bored, so i decided to return to the internet and make a new art account- i will not be using deviantart anymore, it's way to hard here and honestly a bit negative to me, not good memories at all lol.. but i did make a instagram account! this is where i will be active 
i will most likely still be quite distant and inactive- its a bit hard getting back into this again. thank you to those who have supported me in the past, and those who still support me to this day, i appreciate it beyond words.
https://www.instagram.com/gmiamo5/
take care everyone, stay safe
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final updates - its been fun
3 min read
after 3 years, I've decided to finally leave this account inactive permanently.
when i was 12, i made this account.. truly loved being on deviant art, youtube just the internet in general. i made a lot of friends which i would never be able to do in real life, this platform really allowed me to open up to people and so on. but as time went on around a year or so after creating this account i was bullied and harassed by the only person i could call a "friend" irl , she would constantly compare me to others and put me down, she would tell her friend to bite, pinch , kick , whatever to me.. this pulled into a really bad depression which caused me to loose a lot of friendships online and made me separate myself from my family and the friends that i did have during this time. i tried to use my art to express how i felt, but being on deviantart really did not help my mental state.. constantly comparing myself to other artists, my art would barely be recognized and the other people who were going through the same thing really put a toll on me. i took a few months off of this account and online in general and i was able to get myself into a better head space, i came back near the end maybe of 2019 , posted some art, improved a little and recently abandoned the account all together, sadly.. this is my only option, my depression has gone back up.. i had to go see a doctor and they diagnosed me with MDD and i'm now showing symptoms of paranoia which affects my daily life to the point where i can no longer do the things i could do, its hard for me to sit at my desk and draw like i used to. i also haven't been able to handle the tiniest little task, so its hard to imagine how i'd be able to do anything like art trades, commissions etc like i used to, not to mention my physical health as well.. im constantly not able to take care of myself anymore so its hard to even move without feeling like im about to die or something lol. i haven't even been drawing at all for the past 3-4 months, I've come to the conclusion that my journey with art and social medias have come to an end, for the better of course
i know i've said im leaving a lot, but this time I've hit rock bottom and feel like i'd be better off focusing on everything but socials and friends right now, not like i have any left online anyways. i dont think anyone is even left to read this journal but i didn't want to leave anyone who still cares in the dark, i really do appreciate everything that i have on this account, i really do want to thank the people who supported me to the end. i thank you from the bottom of my heart, i wish everyone the best. i will better myself again, it will just take some time. im hoping by the end of the year i'll be able to reconnect with others and maybe make a new account under a new name and be a whole new person.. and surround myself in a better more positive place, only time will tell.
2016 - 2020
when i was 12, i made this account.. truly loved being on deviant art, youtube just the internet in general. i made a lot of friends which i would never be able to do in real life, this platform really allowed me to open up to people and so on. but as time went on around a year or so after creating this account i was bullied and harassed by the only person i could call a "friend" irl , she would constantly compare me to others and put me down, she would tell her friend to bite, pinch , kick , whatever to me.. this pulled into a really bad depression which caused me to loose a lot of friendships online and made me separate myself from my family and the friends that i did have during this time. i tried to use my art to express how i felt, but being on deviantart really did not help my mental state.. constantly comparing myself to other artists, my art would barely be recognized and the other people who were going through the same thing really put a toll on me. i took a few months off of this account and online in general and i was able to get myself into a better head space, i came back near the end maybe of 2019 , posted some art, improved a little and recently abandoned the account all together, sadly.. this is my only option, my depression has gone back up.. i had to go see a doctor and they diagnosed me with MDD and i'm now showing symptoms of paranoia which affects my daily life to the point where i can no longer do the things i could do, its hard for me to sit at my desk and draw like i used to. i also haven't been able to handle the tiniest little task, so its hard to imagine how i'd be able to do anything like art trades, commissions etc like i used to, not to mention my physical health as well.. im constantly not able to take care of myself anymore so its hard to even move without feeling like im about to die or something lol. i haven't even been drawing at all for the past 3-4 months, I've come to the conclusion that my journey with art and social medias have come to an end, for the better of course
i know i've said im leaving a lot, but this time I've hit rock bottom and feel like i'd be better off focusing on everything but socials and friends right now, not like i have any left online anyways. i dont think anyone is even left to read this journal but i didn't want to leave anyone who still cares in the dark, i really do appreciate everything that i have on this account, i really do want to thank the people who supported me to the end. i thank you from the bottom of my heart, i wish everyone the best. i will better myself again, it will just take some time. im hoping by the end of the year i'll be able to reconnect with others and maybe make a new account under a new name and be a whole new person.. and surround myself in a better more positive place, only time will tell.
2016 - 2020
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Updates - important
4 min read
hello everyone ( if anyone even reads this.. ) today I have some updates that I've wanted to get out for a while.
art trades
I've noticed a trend in art trades, people would ask me to trade and of course I would say yes 90% of the time.. I would spend so much time on a drawing, fighting my depression to get the motivation to do it... just for them to never do it? like this has happened at least 6-7 times already.. like it might as well be a gift by now. " BuT WHy WonT YoU remind ThEM?? " it shouldn't be MY job to remind someone to do something they agreed to, that is THEIR responsibility. and if you cant do your part then tell me?? dont just avoid me all together ( some have ) and just continue making personal art. its frustrating
so my solution? only accept art trades from people who i trust, so friends , and people ive traded with before and actually delivered their part.
thank you to the people who actually do the art TRADE and dont make it just a "gift" you're the real ones.
my account
my page is dead, i dont know what to do i've worked very hard to get to where i was and now its all down the drain.. i have a second account that i have ready to move ( again ) if this is just how its going to be now, or i can try other websites ( please reccomend ) so.. its just unmotivating to work so hard on a drawing just to get 0-5/6 likes and no comments and stuff, and because of how my account is i highly doubt anyone will even read this. i let my younger self down on my dream to have a fan base
commissions
i guess im never doing them again. its my only way to get money right now, but everytime im in need of money and i open commissions nobody even looks at the journal or anything. its just hard to put so much effort into a drawing, sell it for dirt cheap ( $6 for a full body shaded ) and defenitly NOT worth the effort i put in just for some sketch to be sold by someone for 25 dollars only because they are popular. so i guess its all just a popularity thing and not a skill thing. but its whatever i guess.
my art
as you can tell i have a new style and one that i like a lot, im going to start on keanu's backstory very soon since i cant write im just going to draw like a comic type thing so idk, also might start the headcanon i started back in 5th grade so thats cool.
french?
im in french 2 right now, and id like to try to practice speaking it more outside of school so i will be trying to write french descriptions sometimes ( the most i can, simple for now ) so if i make a mistake and youre fluent in french then i'd love some tips / if i got anything wrong ( just dont be mean please, im only in french 2 and i have learning disabilitys i cant understand that easy lol ) ok thank you
thank you if you actually did read this, likei said i highly doubt anyone did, take care and goodnight.
art trades
I've noticed a trend in art trades, people would ask me to trade and of course I would say yes 90% of the time.. I would spend so much time on a drawing, fighting my depression to get the motivation to do it... just for them to never do it? like this has happened at least 6-7 times already.. like it might as well be a gift by now. " BuT WHy WonT YoU remind ThEM?? " it shouldn't be MY job to remind someone to do something they agreed to, that is THEIR responsibility. and if you cant do your part then tell me?? dont just avoid me all together ( some have ) and just continue making personal art. its frustrating
so my solution? only accept art trades from people who i trust, so friends , and people ive traded with before and actually delivered their part.
thank you to the people who actually do the art TRADE and dont make it just a "gift" you're the real ones.
my account
my page is dead, i dont know what to do i've worked very hard to get to where i was and now its all down the drain.. i have a second account that i have ready to move ( again ) if this is just how its going to be now, or i can try other websites ( please reccomend ) so.. its just unmotivating to work so hard on a drawing just to get 0-5/6 likes and no comments and stuff, and because of how my account is i highly doubt anyone will even read this. i let my younger self down on my dream to have a fan base
commissions
i guess im never doing them again. its my only way to get money right now, but everytime im in need of money and i open commissions nobody even looks at the journal or anything. its just hard to put so much effort into a drawing, sell it for dirt cheap ( $6 for a full body shaded ) and defenitly NOT worth the effort i put in just for some sketch to be sold by someone for 25 dollars only because they are popular. so i guess its all just a popularity thing and not a skill thing. but its whatever i guess.
my art
as you can tell i have a new style and one that i like a lot, im going to start on keanu's backstory very soon since i cant write im just going to draw like a comic type thing so idk, also might start the headcanon i started back in 5th grade so thats cool.
french?
im in french 2 right now, and id like to try to practice speaking it more outside of school so i will be trying to write french descriptions sometimes ( the most i can, simple for now ) so if i make a mistake and youre fluent in french then i'd love some tips / if i got anything wrong ( just dont be mean please, im only in french 2 and i have learning disabilitys i cant understand that easy lol ) ok thank you
thank you if you actually did read this, likei said i highly doubt anyone did, take care and goodnight.
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trying commissions one last time
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hello C:
I want to try to test my style a bit more and do these commissions, im in need of money and doing commissions is my only source of that until im old enough to get a job.. if these dont work out I can always find other ways somehow C:
they will be busts like this and will cost $6 paypal ( hopefully its cheap enough...) if you'd like one then please comment a oc ! thank you so so much for considering it means so much to me
I want to try to test my style a bit more and do these commissions, im in need of money and doing commissions is my only source of that until im old enough to get a job.. if these dont work out I can always find other ways somehow C:
they will be busts like this and will cost $6 paypal ( hopefully its cheap enough...) if you'd like one then please comment a oc ! thank you so so much for considering it means so much to me
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500 questions
22 min read
*cough* hoe * cough * 
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